To want them, and then to act upon it. It becomes easier once a first move is made. Perhaps too much so.

[ At least he doesn't have to explain to Julius why that might be so, why there is difficulty to begin with, even if the man takes with him a different experience. Marcus hesitates over elaborating anyway, but shares a certain instinct—that is, not to overburden this pleasant morning, after it had started so fraught.

Afternoon? Whatever. ]

I remember [ he says, tone lifting a little ] in the dream, having waited for us to leave that coastal village proper before reaching for you. But I don't believe that was only for my sake.